It does for me. I keep telling myself this is going to be a golden year. And I know I tell myself that every year. However, something is different. I'm different. Somewhere between learning more about who I am. Turning 21. Having a good grasp on paying my own bills. Living the single life. Working constantly. But knowing when I deserve to treat myself to a fun time. Wishing I could have my own dog..somewhere within this crazy past year, I'm finally learning to grow up.
A lot of people see me as someone who will do just about anything, anywhere, anytime. Honestly, I feel like that is what my reputation is. And that's cool. I'll roll with it. This year however, I want it to be different. I want to be adventurous for me.
I have spent a lot of the last few years being adventurous, but not completely for me. I was adventurous to prove a point. Whether that was to show people a female could make it in video gaming, a girl from a fly over state like Oklahoma could fit in a big city, and that you didn't have to conform to the stereotypical "female" role of playing housewife. Nothing wrong with that last one, but it has never been for me.Ultimately, what I wish to accomplish this year is actual adventure. Fearless adventure. Whether that means it takes me far from home for a vacation or a new job, up a mountain, in the middle of the ocean, around weird places in Oklahoma, or into a good book or learning a new language. I want to discover adventure for myself that can take me even deeper into this cool world.
